Beautiful Afternoon Walk

It was raining cats and dogs all day, but it stopped around 4 in the afternoon. Around six in the evening Sweetie came up to me and asked if I wanted to accompany him to the park. I hurriedly said goodbye to my manager and said I'm going out for a walk to exercise! Surprisingly he bit me goodbye immediately. I guess he was pleased to hear I was going to exercise haha.

I quickly changed to sportswear ("If you cannot perform, japorms!" - Marc Macalua, circa 2007). I have a very small selection of workout outfits so it wasn't hard to choose. Few minutes later we headed to the West Coast Park. It's only my second time to walk around the park, so Sweetie wanted to bring me to the edge of the water. Last time we only walked half-way. I completed 2 weeks of PT sessions without cancelling so I thought I'm in better shape now.

Sweetie was forced to walk slowly since I stop to catch my breath every 50 meters (may be shorter than that tbh). We made the whole round without me sitting so that's quite good. We stopped for awhile by the beach to check out the ships. Sat for about 2 minutes, but insects started chomping on our legs so we started our stroll back.

The weather was a bit cooler than usual, probably because of the rain. I loved it and I love just looking at the trees, the sky and the sea. The gigantic ships, boats and yachts were fascinating to watch. It's just simply a great feeling to be out and about. I think we're starting to feel a bit safer now because confirmed cases is averaging about 50 per day, with only 3 to 5 community cases. Sweetie even allowed me to go to Spotlight tomorrow after my doctor's appointment! Yaaaas!

Someday I hope when I go back home we'd have a nice home near a park (farm would be ok too!). By the sea would be nice too, but I dread being near the sea during a typhoon. My "someday" plan is still fuzzy, I just know I don't want to live in a condo unit anymore. I want a right-sized house with a garden or backyard where I can plant more! I also want a hobby room. That's what I hope to have someday!

For now I content myself with where I am now. My immediate goal is to be able to go biking around the park and hopefully check out Clementi Woods Park (it's an uphill park so it's gonna be hard!). We have a company holiday tomorrow, ahhh it'll be good to have some rest after a very busy week.


CB//149 #StuckAtHomeDay/179 #WFH104 #StayHome #BeKind 

Acceptance

When my doctor discovered I had pulmonary embolism I joined a patient group on FB to understand what I was going through. Knowing what others with the same condition helps. I had ten years to prepare myself for my heart surgery and I prepared by reading a book written by a patient. It also helped prepare my family.

You always have the choice to make your life colorful.

The clot in my lungs was discovered after suffering from "severe asthma" for over a year. It was left undetected because I would feel okay after taking asthma meds. I didn't feel better after having "mild pneumonia" and it was then I realized something was terribly wrong. I insisted on getting a second opinion. It was my second opinion respiratory doctor who finally found what was wrong.

My seatmate who got sick last week told me that he wondered how I pull through whenever I get sick. He told me he got a bit depressed when he was sick. I admitted to him that I get sucked in the black hole too, but I always fight to get out of it. My secret? Acceptance.

Two weeks after I was diagnosed with PE I went to Rome (for work!).

I really wanted to go and commanded my body to cooperate!

Doctor grounded me from traveling after haha. 

My allergologist was the one who taught me that the first step is acceptance. I took that lesson to heart and whatever comes my way I accept it, learn from it and move on. By accepting what you have it is easier to learn how to take care of yourself. There's no use blaming yourself or questioning why you got sick. Sometimes there are no answers to that especially if you were born with it.

Majority of my medical conditions are largely due to mechanical issues in my body. It's been really hard to manage, but as I told my friend yesterday, "I cannot live in fear." I have to trust Him that I am where he wants me to be until I complete all my missions.

So if you have medical conditions, fear not. You were saved for a reason. Don't question it. Live your life happily and you can still do many things. Understand what your limitations are and accept that as an excuse to discover other new things about yourself.