The Root of Evil

I always believed in Jean Jacques Rousseau's belief. He said that "man is by nature good". We are after all created in the likeness of God. 

Despite everything I've been through in my life, I'm lucky I'm not jaded or angry at the world. I was telling Sister Lirio last night that I haven't cried because of what happened. She said it's probably because I'm being strong for my Mom. I think it's also because I was expecting this to happen. 

Because the story started over 15 years ago. It started with envy. It started with copying a look. How one acted. Then followed some missing items, a bit of money missing here and there. A firing happened and then supposedly a change.

It was good for awhile and forgiveness was given. But the envy kicked in again. More items started to go missing. Then more money started getting lost. The thought of rehabilitation was there, but it was I guess too late. Relationships were badly affected. Evil took root and it grew. 

I left but I didn't escape it. Little did I know I wasn't free from the work of evil. I found some papers showing that whatever my parents worked hard for me was gone. I told Sister Lirio I'm resigned to the fact that I'll never get it back. 

Good tried to prevail, but envy took over. I was told that they do not deserve the love of my family. 

I also always believe that hardwork pays off. My parents provided me with a good life. We're not rich. We just had enough to enjoy and be comfortable. When we all finished our studies we all worked hard to also provide for our families. 

The envy could have been turned into inspiration instead. Motivation to work harder to achieve your dreams. Just taking what isn't yours to fulfill your wants isn't as satisfying as working hard for a need. 

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Action Filled Day, Iz Tired Zzzzz

I'm only blogging now. I've been busy going through some documents which I found in Mom's basement. It took me an hour and a half to sort it and now Miggy's doing another step of sorting. Yes, that many. 

It was an eventful day. I'm just really grateful for all the help we're getting from family and friends. It must be what VP Leni feels when she sees all her supporters. Pampalakas loob. It took all my will not to hug my friend's Dad. He reminded me so much of my Dad and I almost cried at some point because I miss my Dad so, so much!

Mom and Tito Louie finally get together after more than 2 years.

It was a difficult day to go through, but I reminded myself I had to keep calm to also keep my Mom calm. I read someone post on FB the other day saying that Virgos are always classy. I actually wore earrings, a blouse, pants and shoes! Haha. Another friend even gave me advise to comb down my hair. I didn't have time anymore and just let it stand. 

Also brought my oximeter. My friend reminded me to make sure I was breathing properly and had a stable heart rate. O2 went down to 93 and heart rate was above 100. It went back to normal when everyone was gone. 

Still have loads to do. I smiled when I saw a handwritten note by my Dad. I'll never forget his handwriting because only me, my Mom and Miggy could understand it. He took pre-med before he became a lawyer. I expect to encounter Dad more when we start cleaning the house. 

I'm now having Mom focus on her gardening and getting her to re-start quilting again. She still walks fast and sometimes we have to run to catch up with her. Before I left her house I caught her washing dishes. If I reach her age (86!), I hope I won't make it hard for Miggy hehehe. 

My wish now is for my siblings to come home. I think my Mom will feel more reassured when she sees all of us together. Book ko na lang kaya sila ng flight noh? 

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My New Suspenseful Life

“Criminals should be punished, not fed pastries.” ― Lemony Snicket, The Blank Book

I'm taking a break today. My temp has been elevated for two days now and I hope I didn't pick up an infection from the smelly basement. I hope there won't be any calls from the police or barangay today. They've been trying to force their hand to get in my Mom's home. They can't scare me with threats. In the first place, they should have followed what was agreed on. 

I'm really grateful for the support from family and friends. I know Daddy has been guiding us also from heaven. I found our lawyer because of him. I've also been getting advise from friends who are experts in this field. And I've been getting reminders from everyone to rest. 

Mom's in high spirits. Hope we both can get a haircut soon.

My original plan for this week was to re-pot the cactus Ate Rose gave me. It has outgrown it's pot. I was also going to put up the pink parols (with help of course) and was hoping my new posters would be delivered already. I've also been working on taking over managing Mom's household and scheduled a mangangalakal to pull out our old ref. I was also going to start working on my summer curtains and have lighting installed in our living room. I honestly still hoped there were no anomalies happening. It is what it is now and just have to do what's needed.

Mom's newspaper subscription is back. This was her first request and coffee!
I gave her my supply muna since it was late already when she told me.

A friend told me it was divine intervention already. It was really hard to make a move because I've been so worried about Mom being left alone. We've been trying to find a new helper for two years already. Mom doesn't want to live with me. She still prefers to be independent. I agreed with my friend because I've been praying hard to resolve the issue. I also prayed hard for guidance. 

And you know my prayers were all answered. Even my small whims were granted (i.e. getting Tita Olive to cook spaghetti for me). A long-time prayer to be closer to my siblings was also answered. I now understand my new mission and why Papa God sent me back home. My Fitbit shows that my sleep score has improved a lot and I've been waking up earlier. 

I hope I have a quiet day today. I need it to finish reviewing Mom's accounts. It's a lot of numbers and like a puzzle. Remembered the days when I would prepare budgets at work. I was also designated person to finish whatever was left at the end of the year. Let's just hope for the best. 

P.S. Spoke too soon. I'm definitely not having a quiet day. I ordered some pizza though, easier to eat while reviewing numbers. 

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